Monday, June 09, 2008

Changes

Someone say the only thing that is constant is "change". I think with the increase in fuel prices, many changes will have to take place for income earners! For a start, I have slow down my speed since I was told that driving at 80-90km/h is most fuel economical. Heehehe, i feel like an old lady driving when I am driving at such speed where I used to go at 100-120km/hr. We also try not to swich on the air-con at home so often. Use to have it on for the whole night.
Have been feeling so comfortable at my currently work place even though it is far from my home, I still hardly consider looking for a job nearer to home . I stay in Puchong but work in Nilai. With the increase in petrol price, I got to start thinking about work place again, is it worth paying RM500-600 per month on the fuel?
I have been offered a place to study PhD in university of Malaya for the July intake, so hubby is saying to pursue my PhD, try to get a job with the university. Changes again. So many thought is going through my mind, to study or not to study? The thought of continuing the study is both exciting and scary. Exciting as it is always my dream to do a PhD, scary because I don't know if I have what it take to complete it!
I don't know how it is going to be if I have to work and study and having to have time for my two girls. As it is I already feel guilty of not being able to spent enuf time with my girls as a working mum. As a counselor, I heard lots of sad story about poor/bad family relationship, parents & children, husbands & wives..etc. Enough for me to alway keep a look up for my own relationship with my girls and husband. and that make me feel guilty sometime. Thoeritically, I know what should be done but sometime I just don't practice what I know 感觉有心无力. That's bad I know that's why I feel sorry for my girls sometime that I don't spend enough time with them and leave the maid to do thing for them.
Looks like I have to face more changes ahead of me!

4 comments:

Montessorimum said...

Hey, don't feel guilty, all working mothers is so great and they try all mean to juggle everything. :D

LHS said...

that's a chance for you to take your PhD..changes, yeah, it takes time to adapt it...

Mumsgather said...

If its always your dream than you should go for it. Don't worry about what others have said. You don't have to go that direction if you keep your priorities right. Good luck!

blinka.Li said...

I guess that is the guilt of all working mums, not just you. Even when i work from home, I still feel that! I guess we just have to overcome that. Taking PhD could be good for you now and opportunity does not always knock twice! Good luck to a great mum!