Friday, November 03, 2006

Final count down, 1 more day to go!

If we pregnant ladies can really count down to the day when our baby will be born that would be fanstastic, but baby has her own timing for when she wants to make an apperance to the world!
I attribute all my anxiety to what this particular gynae told me after my check-up on Monday (30 Oct). I was doing my 39 week routine check-up at Serdang hospital, the regular gynae who sees me was not around so I get to see this chinese gynae. After looking at my file, he suggested that instaed of VBAC, I should go for a C-section. He said looking at my age, the reason for my first C, the risk of uterine rapture, safer for baby and blah blah blah, is better for me to have a C. He told me if I wanna C-section, I should be admitted on Tuesday and he will arrange for a C on Wednesday. I was sort of throw off balance by what he said as all this while I am mentally preparing myself for VBAC, and is aware of the risk of VBAC. But the way he sound make it quite unsettling for me, I was anxious. I told him I needed to think and discuss the matter with hubby. Will let him know the next day.
Went home, discuss the matter over with hubby and decided that since we have been praying, preparing and waiting till now for a natural birth, must as well wait till due date then see what's next. On tuesday, went back to see him. The particular gynae who recommended me for C did not come in till quite late. While waiting for him, I met the regular gynae who see me and I asked her if I could see her and discuss some matter with her. She is the consultant gynae, Dr Wan Hamilton, who is also the head of the O&G in Serdang hospital. Dr Wan is a very friendly lady. She remembers me and was happy to entertain me! So we had a chat and I told her about the other gynae's recommendation. She did an examination for me and was assuring me if I wanna try for VBAC, her stand still remain as we have talked abt it during my previous visit, and they will monitor the labor very closely. We also discussed if past due date, baby is still not ready to come, what procedure she would recommend. She reminded me to pray as well! After talking to her, my heart settled down a fair bit, so when the other gynae came in, I just told him I will wait!
Due to the unexpected episode with the other gynae, that's why I became very anxious about baby arrival for the past few day, worried about baby's well being and all the what if question pop in to my mind. But today, I am calmer because I learn to take this matter to the Lord and the prayer in the devotional book that I read reminds me that God is in control and He is the one who is in charge of life.
My sister gave me this devotional book entitle "I'm having a baby, help me Lord" when I was pregnant with Qi Ning. It has a daily reading and a prayer. The prayer in the book helps me to learn to wait patiently for the perfect timing of this baby's birth. One of the prayer goes like this:" Father, once again I submit the cares and concerns I have regarding the birth of this child into Your hands. I trust that he will be born precisely at the time You ordained for your purposes."
So I am submitting all my "what if" questions to the Lord and trust His perfect timing in bringing the baby to the world! Be happy while waiting rather than be anxious so baby will come out a happy baby rather than an anxious baby! :)

Thursday, November 02, 2006

I am still around!

Yes, two more days to go and I am still around! I told baby if she doen't want to come out on 4Nov then she can come on 8Nov which is daddy & mummy wedding anniversary. Our plan is if baby don't come on the EDD, which is this Saturday, we will see the gynae on Monday and discuss about induction and things like that. So at the moment is still a waiting game.
We also have been preparing Qi Ning for the day when Mummy have to go to hospital for delivery. I have never left her since she was born and she is very attcahed to me when come to sleep time at night. We told her when mummy goes to hospital for delivery, she has to sleep with daddy. We also get her to talk to baby and ask baby to come soon. She prays for mummy as well for a smooth delivery.
Qi Ning is getting more independent nowadays. She now prefer to goes to the bath room rather than her potty. She can feed herself quite well and drink from a cup without spilling all over. Her imagination is budding well. She will pretend to be character that she read from her story book such as the big bad wolf, snow white..etc. Sometime, she would dress up and say she is a bride, or cover her face with a veil to ask us to unveil the bride.
She also loves to play hide and seek with us. She will pretend to close her eyes and count one to ten while we try to hide! There is so much joy seeing her grow. :)